My dear

Good morning my dear. I tried throughout the night to enter The Phase. I kept waking and sleeping, waking and sleeping. Surprisingly I am quite awake and aware this morning.

Shiv, I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing at Amrit Vela. I'd imagine that the most powerful stage to have at this time would be uninterrupted connection with you for 45 minutes. I'm not sure how to do that anymore or if it is what I should do. Can you help me decide please?

Out walking

I'm on my way home after a walk Shiv my beloved. The day has been divine. It is the Confluence Age. The meeting between the old and the new. Old world and new world. World of sorrow, world of happiness. So much sorrow here. So much sorrow. A joyless world. But not for me, sat in the bus stop waiting for my feet to cool down.

Far from home

Though I'm far from home, and far from you 'physically', I want you to know I'm trying always to think of you, Shiv. With your support and protection I am becoming a master of matter. That's very exciting I'd have to say. Actually,  now, I cant think of how it could be any other way but it was.

Enslaved I was. Not as much as many though,  I don't think. What do you think?

Is it lonely back there without me? Without us all? How many are left? 

Today is Wednesday and I have to take this body to the doctor. Then tomorrow, the dentist. Maintenance!. Anyway,  just wanted to say hello. Xxx

Equal to you

I want to become equal to you Shiv and I know I can do it. Only because you are there to hold my hand and show me the way.

I will become as beautiful as you. I can do it. I want to do it. I want to be worthy. Clean and pure.

I will see as if through your eyes but they will be my eyes. I will see only with love. My heart will become as large as the universe, unlimited once again.

My mind will fly, my heart will fly. I'm saying thanks again because, well I know it's your role, but I really am thankful 

 You've made the impossible possible. Xxx

Enough?

Good morning. Am I doing enough to help you Shiv? I'd like you to tell me if I'm not. Somehow, let me know. I realise, I know that you are invisible,  that you don't have a body but please find a way to let me know. 

I am your lover. You are my beloved. You are everything to me.  I'm not always the smartest, I miss things, things that others may see as blatantly obvious. Help me here. I want to learn. I want to be the very best that I can. You'll help me do that, I know.

You have helped me with everything. You turned my life around, made it worthwhile and valuable. I have everything whilst most of the world has nothing. You are the husband of all husbands and I want to be the wife of all wives. There, I've said it. I've exposed myself to the whole world. Xxx

Good Morning

Hello. I'm not sure how to write this first letter to you. I want to thank you of course for setting me free.  That's why I love you, you know. I'm sure that's the reason and I'm fine with that. Are you? Is that the right reason for love? Does that mean I'm selfish? 

My life is perfect. I am so happy. That never changes. I have more than everything that I need. It's all thanks to you

Can I call you Shiv? You are my husband and I am your faithful wife. Whatever you want from me I will give it. It's very nice knowing I am light and immortal.  That's my favourite bit of knowledge. You know that, don't you Shiv? I intend to become spiritually and emotionally intimate with you over time. I want to know what's in my heart, when its clean, and I want you to know too.

That's it for now. I'll talk again later. Xx