Sweetest Shiv

Sweetest Shiv.

You've taught me how to lve and shown me how to behave. Life is easy as a result. What can possi5cause me unhappiness other than pain through this body?

Living is easy with eyes open. Knowing exactly what is going on makes life a breeze. Now I know who I am, my specialties then there is no reason to feel down or fed up. 

This old world is dying. It is in its death throes and wont last much longer. It's interesting watching it happen and being unaffected. Slowly. Like a louse. The end is nigh but so also is the beginning. 

Dear Shiv प्रिय शिव

Dear Shiv

I don't  feel like an ordinary human being I feel like a deity. That's good isn't it. I've felt different for a long time now. Who have thought such a thing was possible? Not I. This is what is to be expected from this study isn't it?

Once worthy of worship and then a worshipper and now coming back to being worthy of worship again. All thanks to you of course. Completely,  absolutely impossible without your love, support,  gyan and guidance. Thank you so much.

Good evening

Good evening Shiv. It's very hot. I'm trying to think of you but.decided to write instead. No point in my asking how you are, is there?

A lovely breeze is blowing through the window.  It's so hot in the murli room. I had to leave. I was feeling a bit fidgety.  Should have been able to go beyond I suppose  but took the easier route and came out into the kitchen.

Marcelo's here from Columbia. He leaves on Monday.  

Good morning

I am yours. Whatever you want from me I will give. You've given me paradise on the palm of my hand. Made the impossible, possible. So of course I am yours.

I am your servant and you are mine. I stand to gain so much more but this is not why I act this way. This is my desire, my joy, my meaning of life. The.reward is so great. Such a time of peace is about to come.

We are the same

We are the same, you and I. You've convinced me of this. This is your love. You have unbreakable, unconditional love for all souls. I must be the same. I am your child as well as your lover. Birds of a feather flock together. 

There is no excuse for me and I do not want one. You are my example.  I will follow you. Love for all. Mercy, compassion but also guidance, teachings. You are the ocean of knowledge.  You know everything and now, so do I. You taught me well. I am your prodigy. I am strong, powerful and my duty is to serve the world at every step.

I am a light being

I am a light being, a spirit and I am immortal. These thoughts give me so much comfort. How could I live without knowing.  I could not.

You know how, life before you,  pained me and caused me much distress. So much pain and sorrow. I couldn't bear it. It made me cry and feel so unhappy.

Not any more. Not since I discovered the truth. Now life is a breeze for me. This painful body is my greatest asset, my best friend. It will make me strong. It is the return of my actions and stands between me and absolute bliss. It will keep me on my toes, that's for sure.

Life, at this time, is a drudge

This world is in chaos and to be living now, without knowledge, would be a drudge. There are so many things to attend to and see to. If I didn't have you I don't know what I'd do. Seriously Shiv, I would not.

You are my peace of mind, my silent sanctuary, my port in a storm. I don't know how others manage. I really don't. Life without you would be impossible for me. They are new souls and so can manage for now. We spiral downwards to the end but most are blissfully unaware. That's a good thing for them. If they knew and yet didn't have you. That's not worth thinking about!

My dear

Good morning my dear. I tried throughout the night to enter The Phase. I kept waking and sleeping, waking and sleeping. Surprisingly I am quite awake and aware this morning.

Shiv, I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing at Amrit Vela. I'd imagine that the most powerful stage to have at this time would be uninterrupted connection with you for 45 minutes. I'm not sure how to do that anymore or if it is what I should do. Can you help me decide please?

Out walking

I'm on my way home after a walk Shiv my beloved. The day has been divine. It is the Confluence Age. The meeting between the old and the new. Old world and new world. World of sorrow, world of happiness. So much sorrow here. So much sorrow. A joyless world. But not for me, sat in the bus stop waiting for my feet to cool down.

Far from home

Though I'm far from home, and far from you 'physically', I want you to know I'm trying always to think of you, Shiv. With your support and protection I am becoming a master of matter. That's very exciting I'd have to say. Actually,  now, I cant think of how it could be any other way but it was.

Enslaved I was. Not as much as many though,  I don't think. What do you think?

Is it lonely back there without me? Without us all? How many are left? 

Today is Wednesday and I have to take this body to the doctor. Then tomorrow, the dentist. Maintenance!. Anyway,  just wanted to say hello. Xxx

Equal to you

I want to become equal to you Shiv and I know I can do it. Only because you are there to hold my hand and show me the way.

I will become as beautiful as you. I can do it. I want to do it. I want to be worthy. Clean and pure.

I will see as if through your eyes but they will be my eyes. I will see only with love. My heart will become as large as the universe, unlimited once again.

My mind will fly, my heart will fly. I'm saying thanks again because, well I know it's your role, but I really am thankful 

 You've made the impossible possible. Xxx

Enough?

Good morning. Am I doing enough to help you Shiv? I'd like you to tell me if I'm not. Somehow, let me know. I realise, I know that you are invisible,  that you don't have a body but please find a way to let me know. 

I am your lover. You are my beloved. You are everything to me.  I'm not always the smartest, I miss things, things that others may see as blatantly obvious. Help me here. I want to learn. I want to be the very best that I can. You'll help me do that, I know.

You have helped me with everything. You turned my life around, made it worthwhile and valuable. I have everything whilst most of the world has nothing. You are the husband of all husbands and I want to be the wife of all wives. There, I've said it. I've exposed myself to the whole world. Xxx

Good Morning

Hello. I'm not sure how to write this first letter to you. I want to thank you of course for setting me free.  That's why I love you, you know. I'm sure that's the reason and I'm fine with that. Are you? Is that the right reason for love? Does that mean I'm selfish? 

My life is perfect. I am so happy. That never changes. I have more than everything that I need. It's all thanks to you

Can I call you Shiv? You are my husband and I am your faithful wife. Whatever you want from me I will give it. It's very nice knowing I am light and immortal.  That's my favourite bit of knowledge. You know that, don't you Shiv? I intend to become spiritually and emotionally intimate with you over time. I want to know what's in my heart, when its clean, and I want you to know too.

That's it for now. I'll talk again later. Xx